The wedding photographer’s game finally got shuttered. Jenna Doore found herself on the outs early on Survivor 51. Recently divorced, she was having trouble opening up to the rest of her Toka tribe, which led some members to feel she was deceptively holding something back. Devin Way even insisted she was not actually a wedding photographer at all, and started a very public campaign to get her out.

But Jenna was able to take a comment from Aaliyah Puglia back to Brady Booker, and get her voted out instead. Then, the six Tokas not in the Vibe Five alliance banded together to vote out Patt Cannaday the next time they went to Tribal Council.

Now in the majority and out from Devin’s thumb, his partner, Jelly Loblack and her game appeared to be trending in the right direction. And then the tribe swap came.

Jenna was swapped onto a new Savu tribe with Devin and Jelly. Even worse, it was also with Devin and Jelly’s Helicopter alliance ally, Ori Jean-Charles, and someone Ori was aligned with in Alexis Levine. Translation: Jenna was cooked.

Indeed, Jenna was unanimously voted out at Tribal Council on day nine. But on the bright side, at least she did not lose her shoe in the process!

We caught up with Jenna to ask all about how it all went so wrong so fast not once, but twice! And you can either watch or read the entire interview below.

JENNA DOORE: I don’t have a shot list. I’m answering off the cuff. I think we’re gonna make some art today, Dalton.

So let’s get into it. You looked legitimately stunned once you saw you had been voted out, and voted out unanimously by your tribe. Why were you so shocked?

Great question. Because of course, watching it, I think the obvious thought is like, “Girl, this is not looking good for you. Why in the world do you think you have a shot at this?” The honest truth is, of course, I’m out there, I don’t have all the information, but I really thought I was going to be the swing vote in this.

I was working with Alexis and Ori as much as I could because I of course wasn’t positive about Devin and Jelly, but I thought that was a real thing. I thought they were desperate and that’s how they were playing it to me. Obviously, Alexis visibly was giving desperate. And anytime I talked to Ori, it was very interesting because one, Ori wasn’t exactly corroborating Alexis’ story.

Alexis is telling me, “They’re coming for you. Dev is pitching you.” Then I go to Ori to corroborate the story. And he’s like, “No, no. Nobody said your name.” So this leads me to believe: Well, Alexis is lying. She’s just desperate. They’re coming for her. On the other side of things, Dev and Jelly and I are having these hash out conversations. And I kind of believe at the end of the day, they’re with me.

And that sort of led me to believe I shouldn’t get any votes tonight. So it’s funny. I loved how suspenseful they made it in the edit, but when my name came up on the parchment, that is when I did this [holds head in hands]. Because I knew as soon as my name was there, I’m going home.

We saw you say in your final words that it really hurts and you were heartbroken. Take me through the rest of the night and how it was processing that betrayal after getting your torch snuffed.

I walk out the dark path. You sit in this lonely tent, one light bulb where you’re presumably just supposed to cry out all your tears. And, you know, I did. I literally cried out all my tears. And then I get out of the tent. I’m like, “I’m ready to go. I have composed myself.” Walked down the path. I can’t see much. And all I hear is a producer who I had on the island, Joe. And he’s like, “Hey, Jenna, it’s Joe.” And I just start sobbing all over again.

And the reason I wanna say that is because I feel like obviously you guys saw me struggling so hard on the island in the beginning, day two. And it’s interesting how much somebody like Joe just offered me such a human kindness on day two where I was like, “I need to just vent for a second. Can I please just cry this out?”

I’m so aware of the cameras. That was the thing really getting to me. I don’t know how to talk about my life with all of these cameras. And Joe just let me like vent it out and cry in that moment. And I feel like I owe this man my life. It was such a human kindness.

And so then to be voted out, it’s Joe! I was like, “Oh my gosh!” So Joe does my final interview and that was very meaningful to me. I remember being very clear as much as I was heartbroken. I remember saying things that I was like: Yeah, I stand behind that 100%. I am absolutely heartbroken and I wouldn’t want it any other way. My heart was in this.

The rest of the night I was really scared to go back to Ponderosa. I don’t feel this way normally. I’m an external processor. I am not scared of my feelings. And I was like, I want to go hide in my room. And when I got there, the girls gave me the biggest hug. They wrapped me in a hug. It’s a core memory because one of those people was Patt, who was a brutal vote for me more than was shown. And I was like, man, if I were Patt, I would be so pissed, rightfully so. And we worked through that, but for her to wrap me in a hug… incredible.

Wow. It sounds like you got the full Joe Lia experience there, which is amazing.

It literally is a core memory for me. It was so, so, so sweet. I hope I get to thank him in person, but until then, this will do.

Why was Devin so anti-Jenna in this game? He was obsessed with you!

Why are you so obsessed with me, Devin?!? I think this man is jealous. I don’t know. I mean, come on!  think he wants in another life to be a wedding photographer and he’s threatened by what I am able to do and create. [Laughs] I’m just kidding. I don’t know. I think it’s just one of those things that, if I’m being so honest, Dev and I have had lots of conversations post-game, and this is what I choose to do.

In the game, it is obviously a different reality. It doesn’t justify things that happen. You have to own the decisions you make, but it is a different reality. And I think that you have to, for me as a player, cover the game with that level of grace to be like, “I wanna give everyone a shot to be who they are outside of the game.” So that’s my lovely disclaimer. In the game and watching it back, if I’m so honest, I have cried a lot of tears about it.

Why?

Because, you know, it hurts to have your name and character just smeared to people. And I think beyond the wedding photographer stuff, there was a lot that was happening. I found out from Savu members that at the mutiny, he’s like smearing my name and stuff. And so it is heartbreaking as a player to be putting together these pieces.

And especially because Dev and I had had heart-to-hearts. You know, we had had moments where I’m crying about my divorce and sharing poems with him. And that is also why it wasn’t like when I got to Savu, I was like, “Great, it’s Dev.” I didn’t feel that way. So it’s just one of those things that’s in the game, really tough. Post-game, a lot of healing, but in the game, really tough.

You’re going out there for this fresh start after some personal stuff back home. The thing about Survivor though, is it’s like emotions on steroids. It amplifies your emotions in every way. You seemed to be struggling those first few days dealing with all of that, because you’re so isolated on Survivor. Which sounds weird because you’re surrounded by so many people, but it’s emotionally isolating at the same time. Tell me about that experience for you going in already dealing with some trauma from back home.

You know what’s so funny, and I said this in casting, I kind of feel bad — they’re like, “Jenna, you’re in the middle of your life change right now. What are you gonna have to overcome out there?” And I’m literally like, “Guys, what are you talking about? I have broken through, okay? I am not scared of going out there. I am in this new season. I am not afraid of my feelings. I have processed. I have grieved. I have done all of this stuff.”

And so that is truly how I felt going into the game. And I think that is largely true. But the thing that I did not expect, and in hindsight is really stupid, is it was not like I was keeping what was happening in my life a secret, and it had been, like, 10 months. So many people in my life knew, but also so many people in my larger circle did not know what was happening.

And I realized in real time on the islands of Fiji, like, “Oh my gosh, I am hard launching this divorce on Survivor.” [Laughs] What a terrible decision! And so then I literally felt more than I have ever felt in my life, trapped in my own skin. Truly.

I will say, it was a wild experience to be living my lifelong dream and for those first two days, this was a wild mistake. Like, I think I did something really wrong. And I had to confront it. I kind of liken it to being pushed off a cliff that I don’t know I was ready for. But also there’s something about it where I look back and I’m like, “Maybe that was supposed to be part of my Survivor experience.” I kind of feel like it was.

We saw you all form a group of six last week to take out Patt. Whom were you closest to in that group? Who was your partner in crime out there?

Thien An! My girl! It wasn’t really shown, but Thien An, night one, had a really tough moment in the shelter, and me and Maggie kind of comforted her. And then night two was when I kind of opened up to people, and Thien An and Maggie had my back. And I feel like Thien An, I was the most deeply loyal to her.

I would say Maggie too, but Maggie was kind of bopping all over. I didn’t really know where Maggie’s head was at. Thien An was my girl, and then very much so, I felt this, like, “Oh, I can feel the momentum building with Lewis.” And Lewis is playing a great game connecting with all sorts of people. So there’s a part of me after the game, I was like, “Lewis, was that real?” He assures me it was, but, like, what are you gonna tell a dead person?

That vote truly, obviously 6-5, could have gone either way. And I was like, “Whatever happens, I’m voting how Lewis is voting. We are deciding this together.” And obviously, there’s many people that are deciding this, but that is informing my decision completely because I see that as a strong ally I have moving forward.

I know you gotta run, but how many shoes are you wearing right now?

Zero! Zero shoes! I literally don’t have shoes on!

Does Alexis have them?

She probably does, let’s be honest.